“Then the Lord answered Job out of the storm…” (Job 38:1)
A few days after Truitt’s funeral, some of my family and I were sitting in the kitchen asking some tough questions. After experiencing such deep loss, we have such a desire to just be in Heaven and not have to suffer the pain of this earth anymore. We were meant for Heaven anyways, so what’s the point of being here on earth? I know all the cliché answers like, “We have purpose here too, God chose us to bring others to salvation, etc etc.” But if that is not real in my heart, how will I ever accomplish that?
So God has been speaking today and I am going to attempt to write it down in a way that is coherent. I am taking notes from Job’s experience, since he experienced some pretty intense loss. I am also stealing some ideas from the book, Emotionally Healthy Spirituality, which I highly recommend you read too.
- Face the Dark Night of Your Soul
Somewhere along the way, I was told that feelings of sadness and anger were sinful and that I shouldn’t feel that way. But those are real feelings that I believe are from God. All feelings are messengers from God that speak to us of Him and so I must face the sadness and anger and allow myself to feel these real emotions.
- Wait in the Confusing In-Between and Listen
While anger and sadness are real, I know that I also cannot stay there forever. I must sit in the sadness and wait for God to meet me there. When He meets me there, it is such a precious gift. His nearness is so raw and real and beautiful. Because I have chosen to wait for Him in the pain, then I am able to start moving through it WITH Him!
- Emerge from the Pain
Job emerged from his suffering transformed, broken and changed. He was intimately connected to the Lord. He allowed God to enlarge his soul for even more of God! I am experiencing this and I can’t tell you how exciting it is! I know God in a deeper, more meaningful way.
- I’m Not Finished Yet
So back to this whole “I have a purpose for being here on earth” thing. Yes, Heaven is ultimately where I am headed, but Heaven is in my heart while I’m waiting to get there! The only thing that makes Heaven so wonderful is the fact that GOD IS THERE and I carry God’s presence with me as I walk on this earth.
As I am discovering more of God through grief, I pray that I am sowing Biblical hope into others’ lives as well. You can be certain about your future but it also affects how you live TODAY. Biblical hope is life-shaping certainty.
I pray that God is enlarging your souls today for more of Him. Don’t be afraid to sit in the pain and let God meet you there. Trust me, it is SO worth it.